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Have you ever been so sad that the game started to play itself? Did your routines still hum along even though “self” had evaporated? This song will be a real treat if you’re like me.
lyrics
If my heart pumps blood through my veins…
If my eyes turn light into sight…
If it still hurts, touching the oven at work…
Why do I feel dead?
Everything twitches that should.
All of my reflexes flex.
Like I still crane my neck when I light cigarettes.
I’m worried that you’re nearby and you’ll see.
But you’re not. So
I heave thunderclouds from my lungs.
No, you’re not. So
I shoot coal smoke from my nose.
I stay awake until five. I guess I’m alive
Although I feel dead.
Atlas don’t scoop his own food.
My paychecks ain’t cashing themselves.
If I’m dead and gone how’d the laundry get done?
I feel a heartbeat but I don’t know whose.
Small signs of life rinse across all the surfaces In my apartment 2a.
The toothbrush is wet. There’s crust on the towels.
Somehow the bed is made.
I feel a heartbeat but I don’t know whose.
I feel a heartbeat but I don’t know whose.
I stay awake until five. I guess I’m alive.
You’re gone. I’m dead.
credits
released December 14, 2021
Vocals - Owen FitzGerald
Guitars - Owen FitzGerald
Guitars - Patrick O’Neil
Keys - Patrick O’Neil
Bass - Dylan Turner
Drums - Marc Allen
Recorded by Saman Khoujinian
Mixed by Saman Khoujinian & Ryan Johnson
Final Mixes by Saman Khoujinian & Owen FitzGerald
Mastered by Saman Khoujinian
Distributed by Sleepy Cat Records
Cover art photographer - Shannon Kelly
Cover art concept - Owen FItzGerald
Cover art design - Owen FitzGerald, Anna Grace FitzGerald, Gabe Anderson
Produced by Owen FitzGerald
The latest from Jim Lauderdale is exclusive to Bandcamp, its songs drawing on bluegrass, country, and classic American music. Bandcamp New & Notable Mar 28, 2020