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    Cream cassette with screws and red leader. Clear case. 3-panel J-Cards risograph printed by Woolly Press in Asheville, NC. Hand-stamped on-tape printing by Gabe Anderson and Owen FitzGerald. 8 page BnW zine insert containing lyrics and liner notes. Digital download card. Sleepy Cat Sticker.

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I wrote The Body first, at the end of a shift at Twin House music store. It’s written from the perspective of a chaplain at Wake Forest University who has just watched highlights from the BME Pain Olympics.

The chaplain felt a very real call to explore their own body in similarly drastic ways, but their position makes that impossible. They’re stuck in a body that does not line up with who they feel themselves to be. It’s impossible to live well in a dark place like that.

Body dysmorphia and self hatred is sad and bad. Trans, non-binary, and other queer peoples are often locked in conundrums similar to the chaplain’s. The song is an empathetic short story to my non-binary and trans friends; thank you for being yourselves.

The song is also a claim to my own body. I wish I never felt shame about my shape. I wish I was less scared. I’m a sober person in recovery (I attack my own body with my own body when I’m sick.) The song reminds me that I can be brave(r).

Your body was meant for you. Anyone who tells you differently can get fucked because that’s the devil.

lyrics

I could have moved to Berlin.
Oh well, here I am.
I could have learned the language.
Oh well, here I am.
I guess that leather ball gag is not for me.

I could have been swinging up there easily.
I could have been looking down from the ceiling.
Fish hooks through my back like it ain’t no thing.
Like my body was meant for me.

I could have known the feeling of the razor through my tongue -
Splitting my spoon into a fork.
I kept what I was given because I was told God’s image
Didn’t match with what I imagined myself to be.
Oh no! Here I am…
With what I knew myself to be.
Oh no. Here I am without a body meant for me.

My body was meant for me.

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from Body Child Light Crime, released October 16, 2020

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Owen FitzGerald Raleigh, North Carolina

Southern Gothic alt-folk from central NC.

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