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Body Child Light Crime

by Owen FitzGerald

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matthartisdeadtome Body Child Light Crime is short, sweet and brilliant. This earnest offering is among my very favorites dropped during the DJT reign of error. So glad you’re alive Owen and making/releasing musicks 🖤 Favorite track: The Crime.
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1.
The Body 03:42
I could have moved to Berlin. Oh well, here I am. I could have learned the language. Oh well, here I am. I guess that leather ball gag is not for me. I could have been swinging up there easily. I could have been looking down from the ceiling. Fish hooks through my back like it ain’t no thing. Like my body was meant for me. I could have known the feeling of the razor through my tongue - Splitting my spoon into a fork. I kept what I was given because I was told God’s image Didn’t match with what I imagined myself to be. Oh no! Here I am… With what I knew myself to be. Oh no. Here I am without a body meant for me. My body was meant for me.
2.
The Child 02:12
I don’t want to satire Trump. Just want to see him satire. I don’t want to satire Trump. Just want to satire his friends. I wish that Cool Hand Luke would descend from the clouds In a cast iron time machine. He’d light an unfiltered cigarette, look me in the eye, And scream, “are you not seeing what I’m seeing? I hope my kid’s first word is Fuck Donald Trump. I hope my kid’s second word is Fuck Donald Trump. Their eyes roll back in the back of their heads. They’ll never finish the fiftieth egg. I don’t want to satire Trump, just want to satire his friends. I don’t want to satire Trump, just want to see him satire.
3.
The Light 04:19
What happens when The Lights turn off? What happens when you die? When you flip the record to the other side? When you slip through the Universal drain? When you learn Death’s first name? What happens when The Lights cut on? What happens when you’re born? What is learning for? Where are we headed towards? Is anyone keeping score? What happens when it’s all chaos? What happens when I’m feeling lost? What happens when The Lights run hot? What happens when The Lights run hot? Take it as it comes until you took it as it came.
4.
The Crime 01:54
God bless the bureaucrats The suits one step back From the arc of the spotlight’s powerful sweep God act like rebar And steel the taupe backbones Of career bureaucrats; nourish them please. God put kind people In the paths of the bureaucrats - A free cup of coffee when they least expect. God grace the brains Of our careful, brave bureaucrats Keeping the wheels greased behind these rich idiots. God grant mischievous Hearts to the bureaucrats. Make their hands quick like good tableside magic. Give a good poker face To our honest bureaucrats. Help them lie straight in the eyes of The Boss. A shining brass guillotine Sits in the breakroom A post-it note reads: prototype office chair. The clever last bureaucrat Remarks to The Boss, “Yeah, it also reclines just pull that lever there.”

about

Each of the songs sprung up like pieces of toast. They each happened suddenly, and were finished in one sitting.

I wrote The Body first, at the end of a shift at Twin House music store. It’s written from the perspective of a chaplain at Wake Forest University who has just watched highlights from the BME Pain Olympics.

The chaplain felt a very real call to explore their own body in similarly drastic ways, but their position makes that impossible. They’re stuck in a body that does not line up with who they feel themselves to be. It’s impossible to live well in a dark place like that.

Body dysmorphia and self hatred is sad and bad. Trans, non-binary, and other queer peoples are often locked in conundrums similar to the chaplain’s. The song is an empathetic short story to my non-binary and trans friends; thank you for being yourselves.

The song is also a claim to my own body. I wish I never felt shame about my shape. I wish I was less scared. I’m a sober person in recovery (I attack my own body with my own body when I’m sick.) The song reminds me that I can be brave(r).

Your body was meant for you. Anyone who tells you differently can get fucked because that’s the devil. .

The draft title for The Child was FTNT, which stood for Fuck The Next Trump. I thought/think that criticism of Donald Trump is too sophisticated and nuanced. I’d be embarrassed if any of my moral heros (Cool Hand Luke being one) showed up and saw that I had not curbstomped Donald Trump personally. Fuck him because that’s the devil.

I imagine it might be difficult or disheartening to spend a career in public service only to have a narcissist despot end up being your boss. The Crime is a grateful prayer to our government employees. I’m asking them to give no quarter to tyrants. .

I usually write about smaller, concrete details. The Light, however, is a broad song. I wrote it looking at Odette, my and Nelle’s child, when they could first sit up by themselves. Big, ancient feelings crash into me all the time when I’m with Odette. It’s such a privilege. I doubt I could have written a song as sweeping and zoomed out as The Light without having been in early-dad-dom.

All of the songs feel like friends who showed up unannounced. They knocked, and shoulder checked me on the way in, saying, “it's about time, Christ, is there any coffee?”

credits

released October 16, 2020

Vocals/ Acst. Gtr./ E. Gtr./ Bass/ - Owen FitzGerald
Drums - Daniel Hall
Rhythm Guitar/ Solo guitar(1) - Patrick O’Neil

Written and produced by Owen FitzGerald
Recorded at Nightsound Studios in Carrboro, NC
Engineered by Chris Wimberly and Glenn Schwartz
Mixed by Chris Wimberly and Owen FitzGerald
Mastered by Saman Khoujinian

Cover art by Chris Frisina

Release Notes: www.sleepycatrec.com/scr008-body-child-light-crime

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Southern Gothic alt-folk from central NC.

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